I know I am following my bliss when my work is an act of love and devotion. Every day is a joy to live!

Ok so my throat is still infected my tongue has sores on it ,my eyes have a rash and sores in them and i am pretty sure i have sores in my nose and sinuses.You would think i  would be use to this by now.The taste in my mouth is so bad i cant even stand it.Its a double ended sword.If i go get the steroids again that’s another 10-15 lbs.And i cry over everything.I have gained over 50lbs since the start of all this.i use to be pretty attractive woman now look like old beat up lady.I for one am not complaining about how i look but would be nice to look healthy and not have dark circles around my eyes and big bags of fluid under and around my eyes.The cure is almost worse then the illness.

I try so hard to not show how sick i really am that other  forget how sick i really am.I push myself to the point of exhaustion.Just to fix a good dinner can wipe me out let alone have to do all the cleaning up the next day.When i vacuum i cannot walk rest of the day.I have had 2 back surgeries and now have 2 more bulging disk that i will not have surgery on because my curvature of the spine is so bad it would not take the pain away any how. I am going to have my granddaughter here for 4 days and pray the weather stays nice.They give me a reason to get up everyday.A reason to keep fighting and not give up.

Thank god for grandkids they are God’s reward for having children.

Hope your days filled with sunshine and fresh air………

SONG FOR HIS WIFE,SONG FOR LOVE, SONG FOR ILLNESS, SONG FOR THE SOUL

 

Rob Thomas Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com

HER DIAMONDS

I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what Im doin'
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what Im supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes

Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what Im supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
Shell be all right
Shell be all right
Just not tonight

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

Rob Thomas

Flowers

Here are few of my favorite flowers i have been growing.Bleeding hearts are so beautiful to me.I also love love smell of lilacs if i had my way I would have whole yard full of them every color they have.

Used my last jars of canned tomatoe sauce.I will have to grow more this season so they last until the new ones are ripe and ready to can.One of my favorite things to do is make home made chilli with the tomatoe sauce.