Here are a few of the plants blooming in my flower garden right now.Its one thing i still do myself even if I can not walk for days after working in the flower beds its so worth it to me.Its a great way to bury allot of your problems dig them up and plant flowers over them....

This is a very old azalea The colors are so beautiful and one first ones to open in spring.

These are a few of the planted pots i have in my flower beds.I really like to add more with pots fills in the blanks spots and I can change therm if they don't grow good where i have them.                                   

The Star

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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I know I am following my bliss when my work is an act of love and devotion. Every day is a joy to live!

Ok so my throat is still infected my tongue has sores on it ,my eyes have a rash and sores in them and i am pretty sure i have sores in my nose and sinuses.You would think i  would be use to this by now.The taste in my mouth is so bad i cant even stand it.Its a double ended sword.If i go get the steroids again that’s another 10-15 lbs.And i cry over everything.I have gained over 50lbs since the start of all this.i use to be pretty attractive woman now look like old beat up lady.I for one am not complaining about how i look but would be nice to look healthy and not have dark circles around my eyes and big bags of fluid under and around my eyes.The cure is almost worse then the illness.

I try so hard to not show how sick i really am that other  forget how sick i really am.I push myself to the point of exhaustion.Just to fix a good dinner can wipe me out let alone have to do all the cleaning up the next day.When i vacuum i cannot walk rest of the day.I have had 2 back surgeries and now have 2 more bulging disk that i will not have surgery on because my curvature of the spine is so bad it would not take the pain away any how. I am going to have my granddaughter here for 4 days and pray the weather stays nice.They give me a reason to get up everyday.A reason to keep fighting and not give up.

Thank god for grandkids they are God’s reward for having children.

Hope your days filled with sunshine and fresh air………

SONG FOR HIS WIFE,SONG FOR LOVE, SONG FOR ILLNESS, SONG FOR THE SOUL

 

Rob Thomas Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com

HER DIAMONDS

I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what Im doin'
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what Im supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes

Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what Im supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
Shell be all right
Shell be all right
Just not tonight

And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
Shes down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

Rob Thomas

Flowers

Here are few of my favorite flowers i have been growing.Bleeding hearts are so beautiful to me.I also love love smell of lilacs if i had my way I would have whole yard full of them every color they have.

Used my last jars of canned tomatoe sauce.I will have to grow more this season so they last until the new ones are ripe and ready to can.One of my favorite things to do is make home made chilli with the tomatoe sauce.

Life Hits

My life right now is like a carnival ride. Just when i think i can relax and do some sewing POW BANG & life hits me right square in the head. I have a brother who has had mental health issues since we were teenagers. He has been on medicine for this his whole life. He had 9 years free from his illness and no hospitalizations.He is bi-polar and has in the past spent allot of time in state hospital for his illness. When his medicine working you would not know he's been so sick for so long.
Out of the blue he has had a break down. I have always been the one who can reach him and slowly bring him back to reality. I spent many hours at the state hospital with him bringing him food and what ever he needed. He has been in the hospital this time for over 6 weeks now and he still not closer to being well.

On top of this my elderly parents have had to get guardian ship over him so they can make him take his meds(He thinks their poisoning him and refuses his meds)My mom has heart frailer from a heart attack and blood clots in her stent and almost died 2 years ago. It took over 5 mths before she was out of the hospital and not bleeding from the blood thinners to break up the blood clots. I was in the ER last night with my mom for her heart. She's under so much stress its really tasking its toile on her.
Mental illness is not a pretty thing to have to look at or explain.I Pray my family can all get through this in one peice and come back toghter as a loving family,Or accept that he might just never be well again.